Enchanting

Identity... it's the very heart of the main quest of our generation.  Who am I?  Why am I here?  What is the point? It is also one of the biggest areas in which the devil likes to attack us, as Christians. I have felt it, I have seen my husband struggle with it, and I have heard from one too many dear brother or sister the cries of their heart echoing the cry of my own... God wants to settle this issue once and for all. We can no longer give the devil any voice in our hearts. We have to stand on the truth God has spoken. It's right here for us to find. It's in His Word. It's the whisper of truth in our hearts. It's the hope we feel when we enter into true worship. Our identity is found only in him. It is this crazy paradox: you can't find yourself until you lose yourself in Him.  Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. Matthew 10:39 We have to trust in Him, and make His voice the one tha...

You are the light of my life Without you, the whole world lies in darkness Save us from our blindess Righteous Sun with wisdom and grace Save us from our wicked ways Fill our mouths with love and mercy Let our lips repeat your praise Give our souls compassion and your transcendent peace They shall be known by their love for one another, let them be one as we are one This was your prayer for us Oh, how far have we fallen? How lost have we become? Rescue me, Father I don't know how to find my way I need your love to breathe, to live Give me another chance to be what I was born to be A shining light in the darkest places A fire of love in the coldest hatred A reflection of you, the one I was made for Show me the way to be I want to show the world your wonderful face Shine through me I will be a carrier of your grace I will choose to love, despite my hurt, my offense, my fear I will choose to stand firm The way you showed me You were silent when accused Brill...

Sometimes the hardest thing you can do is nothing. Doing nothing -just waiting, just trusting is, to the human mind, utterly terrifying. Every fiber in our being fights against it. Our minds conspire against us, trying to solve the problem, to find a way out. "Be still and know that I am God." -Psalms 46:10 Sometimes we are meant to just wait. Sometimes there is nothing we can do. I can't imagine how Joseph felt sitting in that prison, alone and forgotten. What could he do to change his situation? Nothing. Just wait. Trust. It says that it took two years before Pharoh's cupbearer remembered Joseph and his gift (Genesis 41:1). Joseph sat there for two more years after his interpretation of the cupbearer's dream came to pass and he was released! (Genesis 40) I'm sure I can't imagine, Idaho isn't exactly prison, but I can relate. Being somewhere I'd never thought I'd be, somewhere that wasn't part of the plan. Feeling stuck with no way ...

*****edit: this definitely should have been posted on our couple's blog, I don't know what I was thinking. Update: since January, Gabriel and I no longer work for ctc. A very long story. Transition is here yet again, keep us in your prayers. Well, folks, if you had told me a year ago, maybe even 6 months ago that I'd be in Idaho right now I would not have believed you. Actually... I probably would have. I'd be liable to believe any crazy thing at this point. And you probably think we have commitment issues with the amount of job flipping and moving around we do, not to mention trying out new schools and ministries. [Only a little ;)] The truth is, we are still young, still trying to figure out this complicated thing called life, and still trying to find our place in the midst of this crazy world. God has led us to some strange places, and asked us to do some even stranger things, but hey, "I will become even more undignified than this, and I will be humiliated i...

In a small Wisconsin town in the 1930s the bitter cold bit at a young girl's nose. Her clothes were wearing thin and her coat now had holes throughout. But there were no new winter coats in this town. There was no food, either. There was no work. And no money. They were calling it "The Great Depression". I guess there were hardly any new winter coats in any town. This young 8-year-old girl was wondering why she couldn't have grown up somewhere warmer when she finally arrived home. She almost missed it due to the snow blowing around her now numb face. She had to pull hard to open the door against the force of the blustering wind.  "Amber, thank goodness, you're home." Her mothers weak voice met her at the door. Their home was small, only two rooms. One for cooking and eating and sitting by the fire, and one for sleeping. Everyone slept in there. All seven of them. Mother was sitting in their only chair -a rocking chair, mending some clothes. The baby w...

Written 6/1/13 (Because I hate loose ends...aka unpublished drafts!) It's also an interesting back story to why we ended up in Idaho which is why I went ahead and posted it so late and why I'm keeping it up now. Hello friends, it's been a while but I'm finally blogging again. May was the craziest month for me! I started a new job and did two trips two weekends in a row! That wasn't on purpose. Gabriel mentioned to me that an artist he follows and really likes wasn't coming to the Denver convention this year but the nearest one to Colorado he was going to was Phoenix. I thought it sounded fun seeing as I've never been to Phoenix so I told Gabriel to look up costs for tickets and travel expenses and maybe we could manage it for his birthday! (Even though it was a month later). We ended up budgeting it out of our tax returns, so it worked out. Later we realized a family event -my grandparent's 50th anniversary party, happened to be the weekend before! ...